2017 Review: Cancer Sucks. Suicide Sucks. Fuck You 2017.

[the croc]

What a shitter of a year and its not even June yet

[dustbinflowers]

Sorry 2017 is sucking for you. I hope it gets better.

[General Mutante]

It's been pretty much a continuation of 2016 sucking for me. Suicide, madness, violence and my dad has dementia.

[PertHJ]

Sorry to hear you dudes are having a tough time, you are GCs

[the croc]

Thanks Serra and Pert.

I don't really know why I posted this but everyone look after each other cause shit can change real fast.

[mmmm....good crack]

ay fuck cancer, shout out to boozie.

[General Mutante]

Thanks Serra and Pert.

I don't really know why I posted this but everyone look after each other cause shit can change real fast.

Fuck yeah to that.

[the croc]

I hope shit gets better for you Andy.

Dementia is tough. Especially when they come back for a little bit and it seems like everything is normal and then they're off again. Watched my Grandma go through it.

[General Mutante]

My dad got really confused recently and asked if I was his son. So I said "No, I've killed him and I'm wearing his skin," then he knew it was me because I always say cunty things like that.

[dustbinflowers]

My last six years have been tough. Really tough, with a combo of massive events shaking up life,- natural disasters, health issues, escaping an abusive relationship, financial strife and having to stop doing the work I love. I'm hindsight I have been a mess, barely functioning in real life and completely shut down emotionally.

I'm not sure if it is helpful to say it on here, but finally over the last year I think I am getting back to being in a better place. I still have auto immune stuff going on, I won't ever be able to do fieldwork again, but I am happier, functioning, and even entertaining the notion of starting to seek help for my anxiety and ptsd.
It does get better is what I'm saying. Or at least there's a new different better. It might not be as good as it was before, but it's good enough.
xxx

[the croc]

Sorry to hear that Serra. Sucks about health issues stopping you doing field work. Getting into the bush is definitely my happy place.

My ex was dealing with anxiety and ptsd, and even though it's cliche as fuck now, mindfulness courses did seem to help her. For a bit at least anyway.

I'm doing OK with my own stuff really, just seems like things are stacking up a bit at the moment. My mum had a mastectomy a few weeks ago and is due to start chemo in the next week or two, and the suicide of a close friend last weekend and all the shit that goes with that.

Anyway, I've always loved this song which seems pretty suitable right now

[dustbinflowers]

Stuff happening to loved ones can be harder I reckon. xxx

[General Mutante]

I reckon I'm too damaged to really react to much by now. Been through suicidal and emerged like Colonel Kurtz at the end of the river. The horror.

[The Ost]

It's been shit, hasn't it?

Oh well, we can only hope for the best.

And pies still exist.

[dustbinflowers]

Venison and Portobello mushroom pie from Beanos in Waikouaiti. Getting one while out working, and eating it at the Karitane lookout has actually been the highlight of my month a couple of times, when stuff has been shit.

[the croc]

I should probably lay off the pies, I am having trouble fitting all of the pants that I own.

[dustbinflowers]

I am also having that problem

[akaxo]

after a bit of upheaval at the start this year has been pretty fucking good for me on the whole if that makes anyone feel better.

my only clothing related problem is finding that most the shirts i own are now too big for me, no pies for me...

[the croc]

Glad to hear it.

Still keen for doing a radio show at some point Akaxo?

[General Mutante]

I for one won't be happy until we get an Akaxo calendar with him in a variety of sexy poses.

I'd do one but I make enough people sick without getting naked in the first place.

[dustbinflowers]

The profile pic he has is a good start...

[akaxo]

careful what you wish for, i have more than enough sexy nsfw photos on hand for a calendar.

and yes keen as for a radio show sometime!

[the croc]

Fucking hell just found out my best mates Mum had a stroke and is blind in one eye and another mate has his Dad's funeral tomorrow after a long cancer battle.

What a shitter.

[General Mutante]

Must be the season for it. An old mate of my
mine's dad is on his way out from cancer right now. I think I'm going to be a tree next time around. The novelty of this form wore off a while ago now.

[dustbinflowers]

Trees get maimed or chopped down. I would recommend lichen or a slater. No one fucks with slaters. Lichen lives forever, sees all and is un noticed.

[PertHJ]

Imagine having the ability of live forever like lichen, but you're also lichen

[Dixon Cider A.C.]

I'm gonna be so fuckin hungover tomorrow morning

[the croc]

Come back as a tardigrade. Then no one you care about will die because you'll all be invincible.

[dustbinflowers]

Yussss

[General Mutante]

Sentient space cloud